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I hate meI hate youI hate himI hate herI hate usI hate you (plural)I hate them (masculine)I hate them (feminine) I hate narrow mindednessI hate ignoranceI hate avoidable stupidityI hate drunkennessI hate coldnessI hate dishonestyI hate authorityI hate work I hate dirtI hate children murderedI hate falsenessI hate boredomI hate moneyI hate old ageI hate […]
I can’t feel the world.I can’t feel people.I’m numb to everything around me,Except maybe my music.The world is dumbing me down,Doping me up.I need more interesting, exiting people in my life,Just to keep me normal.I’m addicted tot he search for meaning,If I find none, I want to flush the world away! Written 20 years ago.
Trying to sleep to kill time,And one day, time will kill me.Wasting each day, in my prime,It’s not all it seems to be free. I’m outside, looking in on the fun,Banging on the window, but unheard.Am I happy to just exist with the sun,And to remain this way, lonely and scared? My boredom feels terminal, […]
The sun rises, invades my room, breaks my sleep.I crawl slowly and uncomfortably from a pained unconscious,My mouth, dry and stinking, my nose blocked and sore,My hair, ragged and bent and my shoulders stiff.The morning glory in my sweaty pants present yet again!I struggle to get back to sleep, indeterminate in length, but in vain.Reluctantly, […]
Life and living,Complete desolation of the mind.Living in limbo, purgatory.Being brain dead, but being conscious of it.Being lonely,Being bored,Being without ambition or initiative.Realising everything is meaningless, Not even absurd!Being unable to feel joy or love,Being seriously ill,Being hated,Being…… Written by me about 20 years ago.
Boy sitting alone in the sun contemplating the world,Wondering what to do next and how to do it.Wondering where people are going, who they’re meeting,And most importantly, what they’re thinking!Wondering why children are murdered… How does he even begin to try to make sense of things?Why does everyone else seem to know what’s going on?Or […]
Madness causes my mind toFrequently erupt,Spewing lunatic lava flowsHere and there, solidifying toForm a barren landFrom which nothing grows. A poem I wrote some 20 years ago..
Few are more internet crazy than me. There’s not much I havn’t done online, from meeting people and running a business to self diagnosis and learning. I’ve also had a few breakdowns in my time and sought both clinical and mental help in the form of real life Doctor and Psychotherapist visits. In recent years […]
Leaving Neverland Yeah, no prizes for guessing the context of this post! The Leaving Neverland documentary/film has been out for about a month now and is causing havoc worldwide and dividing opinions. The first thing I need to say is that I’ve seen it! Many have come to conclusions about it without even getting that […]
Why!? I’m not sure where the hell this idea came from but the seed was planted, so to speak, when I got a leaking aquarium and some goldfish from my kids for my 43rd 25th birthday recently. I tried fixing the tank but getting the old silicone off was near as hell to impossible so I […]